I just can't stop.... I'm that I don't help anyone else. I know I just put all my problems on to everyone here. No one on here should have to deal with me.

At least this helps to dull the emotional pain temporaly. Maybe if I do this enough, it will effect the lump in my head and take care of everything. It's only a matter of time any ways.

As much as I hate my father and mother, I feel they are my parents and I should respect them........just so gone....don't care to see T, now that he is back. what's the use....I am such a gross, disgusting, freak of nature that needs to be hurt...emotionally and physically. Just take it all away.