Both of them really said everything I could say. I do know that I push people away when I get manicy or when I free fall into depression. Its like I just get these weird ideas (I guess delusions) about what is reality (when it really isn't) and I kick everyone out of my life. I have done this so many times that I honestly just don't try to make friend anymore. The only person in my life is my husband and I feel like I need to leave him about every two weeks. I get that way because I know I am so ****ed up I feel like I must be torturing him as much as my illness tortures me. So its not that I don't love him, I just end up feeling so unworthy that I feel like I MUST leave. Fortunately, he won't let me go. Its really a miracle I've found him and he's so willing to suffer through all of this with me. I don't know how everyone else does, but I bet your friend's feeling something similar. Its like sometimes nothing makes sense and nothing gives me contentment or peace so I just keep looking and looking (similar to what lonegael says) and see my current relationships as lacking, even though they aren't. Until my husband, I was never faithful to my relationships. Its like I was always looking for this elusive something (I know now it was the bipolar/mania causing me to make really bad decisions). Guh, I don't think I've helped at all. Sometimes its so flipping hard to explain my brain.