Well LLT... congrats.. I know it doesn't feel great right now, but you've taken a step on your own. It's so hard walking out of Ts office when you know it's the last time for forever probably. But you can look at it as the first steps toward a new and hopefully better life. Make them positive steps. It's rough for the first few weeks... if you can, try to plan something for the times each Wednesday you would have therapy. Like go to a movie or be out shopping. Something to keep you active through that time so you're not sitting and ruminating on the fact that you should be at therapy or whatever. It's okay to feel a sense of loss, I mean I know i did to a degree. It's important to look ahead at your upcoming appts and realize that not one of the Ts you're going to see will be the T you just had. Just know that up front. The question is if you and the new T will have personalities that mesh and form a great working relationship. I know you'lll find someone. I wish you the best in this... I know the process because as you know I'm going through it now. Hang in there and keep us posted here.