Hey Perpetually Sad, he hasnt tried yet, I think hes embarrased maybe cause he knows me so long, and thinks i will look at him and treat him differently, But i wouldnt , not ever! I wish so much that i could get through to him, sort of break that wall down. Im not 100 percent sure since he never told me hes bipolar but i really believe he is and you know what, its ok!!!!! It doesnt matter at alll to me, Hes still the same person inside and i know if all my friends here at pc knew him, you would LOVE HIM!! Hes got such a beautiful heart, even when he would say im crazy, you dont want me, i could see what was underneath and it made me love him more. That makes sense about the isolation thing, i cant imagine what he goes through because I dont suffer from it , The connecting thing , not being able to, Is him. In the past when he would go through stuff, he would disappear and isolate himself. I always felt bad and kinda thought maybe something was going on besides depression, but hes private about stuff so I didnt want to push, maybe if i had?? I feel like maybe i let him down?? I know he cant talk about stuff though, too hard and i know his history with me makes it hard, I dont want him to suffer silently which im afraid he is, I def plan on being there for him for the long haul, i started studying, reading books, gathering info, checking out afffordable therapists (if he decides he wants to go)so that if he can tell me someday, hes said he really wishes he could, I wont push him though, Im hopeful one day he will tell me, I mean i know he has a gf but cant a old friend help too? Im being respectful to his relationship, just want him to know he can count on me too.
I mean his new crowd looks like they have alot of fun and here i am trying to make him read books, join this site and get help. No wonder why he chose them, thing is I think its beyond his control,?? I just feel so so sad.What do I do??