I think you already know right from wrong, you are just not applying that knowledge. I think you are not applying that knowledge because you don't think you are worth more than this rubbish. If you felt worthy of real love, of respect, you would never have even met these guys, let alone have had a threesome. You would have seen them on the street and just by a glance known that they were rubbish and walked right by them.

Forget your behaviour, its just the symptom. Its the thing that should wake you up and make you want to change. What you really need to work on and think about is who are you and what you believe about yourself and the world. If you believe that you are worthy, that you are respectable, people like these guys will not even see you on the street, you will be invisible to them. Your thoughts and beliefs attract people to you. If you believe you are crap and a hoe as you said, then you are going to attract crap and pimps. Start believing that you are a decent, respectable, moral, etc, woman, and you will get treated that way.

As for having urges...we all have them, the only difference is that you have to hold sight of what is important to you. I was propositioned last week, the urges were there, but I didn't know him and I certainly wasn't in love with him. My answer was no, because I know I have to be able to look at myself in the mirror and not feel that I let my beliefs of who I am be destroyed.

Good luck.