I wish I could give you a kiss and a hug kind of answer and help. But the reality is as it is with all of us you will never be normal. So you have to pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and start all over again. With us, pills are a way of life. I hate them, too, but I hate to take them. And I wonder what people think when I have to open up my purse and get a couple of pills out. But I do it anyway.
You have a husband, a little girl, and a job. All of that is a plus. Even after you had probably a manic episode. Some people lose it all. They are worth the pills you have to take.
I wish I was more huggy huggy with you. But I am out here working every day and I know people don't care how many pills you take or what you have to deal with. When it gets to be a problem you have to stand up for yourself to keep what you got. We do have a few rights.
It takes time to get used to it. It will get better. Hang in there