lonely...what if noone will ever ever like or understand me?
when I react to something that makes me feel unsafe, and I say I feel unsafe, they stick to their views and don't help me feel safe.
why do I attract people --online(another forum)---who are like my father...always, and I feel ashamed, when I already felt unsafe.

my therapist is on holiday right now, but I do remember hew telling me to protect myself....trying..trying...

I shouldn't have read that article that was there...I TRY and avoid anything about terrorists/bombs when I'm alone at home, this time I didn't. I expected myself to feel ok...didn't expect a total paranoid maelstrom---how I saw it....
so, I've taken myself here..I KNOW I'm on the edge...