i think i might know why it bothers me. (kind of graphic)

the summer before my 9th grade year was the first time i started with the
"four play" i remember i fingered a girl at the bowling alley and later that night
i went to take a sip of my drink and my hand stunk so bad i actually vomited
onto my hand and into my drink. it took about a year before i would put my face
anywhere near "that area". and when i finally did it was fine until i thought about
it later.

my girlfriend and i have worked things out. i talked about it with one of the
counselors we have here on campus. and he was like "well if you don't feel sick
while doing it, you just feel sick when you think about it later. stop thinking
about it later?"

crude, but it seems to be working. when my girlfriend or anyone else goes
to mention vaginas or oral sex i just cover my ears, close my eyes, and start
yelling.

believe it or not most people think it's kind of funny.