I called my T this morning because I had received several disturbing 3 am phone calls from my psychotic sister. She triggers me badly, and I feel totally powerless to help her at all. My T talked with me and when I started crying from sadness that my sister is in so much pain from our past childhood traumas, my T said "I'm not going to listen to this if you're going to do that" I immediately shut off my feelings. My T has done that before. It really hurts me when she threatens to hang up on me for crying. She says it is emotion mind, but i was just feeling sad and helpless. I don't get it. She is always encouraging me to feel my feelings, so what happened here? She knows that due to abuse traumas that i deal with feelings that are stuck inside by dissociating and urinating inappropriately instead of crying. She stayed on the phone with me for 20 minutes, but she seemed kind of mean (and I told her so). She knows how guilty i feel on so many levels when it comes to my sister. The guilt is so bad and my anxiety is so high that I have felt like vomiting. My feelings are inside and stifled. As I understand it, my tears were from emotion mind insted of wise mind so she didn;t want to hear it. It hurts to hold it in.