Piper,
Our abuse we never talked about came out in dreams first as a young child, then acting out as an older child and young adult, then as rebellion as a teen and as depression and anxiety and trauma as an adult and finally recognized a pattern or dissociatin as an older adult.
For you, it need to com out and likely, for you, in a few more creative therapeutic ways, since the way she/he has been working with you, just using power of positive thinking/changin you mind, is not working...you are even dissociating more, an insider laughing etc! Can she use a few more creative ways to help? Or, maybe a therapist who knows about DD. We feel concern for you. Therapy takes long for this so be gentle with self.
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Originally Posted by Piper16
So I have been having bad dreams about some abuse I never talked about. I mentioned the bad dreams to my T who said that along with my wanting to cut again, means pain, probably around past abuse, and asked if I am going to let it control me or if I can just let it go. In the meantime I am switching like crazy due to the stress of even bringing it up and she is acting like I can just let it go and move on. Am I the one who is hanging on to this stuff or is she being clueless? I honestly don't know how to just let it go, I can't control the dreams or the memories. I seem to need to switch which she is totally unaware of and some of us find it humorous which also helps us cope and not react while in T. But is it possible to just choose not to let this stuff bother us? I have come a long way but have still talked little of the abuse and do better writing it down so I won't react emotionally. But can't seem to let it go, I can put it out of consciousness for a time but eventually it creeps back in. What can I do to let this go?
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