I'm so down and depressed I feel I can't take it anymore. Today I told my husband I was sorry for being a bad wife and that I wished I was dead. He was so upset by that and asked me to never say that.

The thing is, I am so down that I can only see death as a way out. I can't kill myself, but I do wish a truck would hit me or something like that. The everyday struggle is so hard. I just want to be "normal" and have a bad day here and there, but not every single day.

Sorry for the stupid message, just needed to say it out loud.