Okay, so I am tearing up here after reading this stuff. Thanks for getting it and supporting it and for being people who are willing to stop for a neighbor, a stranger, a critter. Also I do appreciate the permission to not be there right now with my dying friend. My resources are low. Too low. My T and Doc are both speaking with me about boundaries and self care. Boundaries not in the traditional sense but to listening to my thoughts and feeling if I am speaking shoulds and have tos.

Baby came home. He is beautiful. A rough road to travel. Mom looks so tired. I gave everyone lovin and left quickly, of course not touching baby.

My friend whom I called last night gave me a bunch of fresh food and groceries for them and I delivered before doc's appoint at noon. She doesn't know these people, is also sending clothes for dad and son.

Her Rotary club is going to rob their gardens etc for fresh stuff.

I am so moved. I had a great time with babies last night. They are awesome kids.

Thank you for being here and HEARING my explorations. By the way, after doc's appoints for daughter and I, I stopped at local store on way back to work. A neighbor was there and had been going to buy food for the family. I told her that maybe we should wait and stretch it out a few days. How cool.

Perhaps the reason this is so significant is that I have felt isolated and uncared for so much of my life. Even with hubby's surgery and recovery we got ONE meal. We are who we are, kind, loving and willing to stop for a neighbor and part of me is wondering whu we don't have a support community like that.