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Originally Posted by zoombug
I'm not sure what to say, this is my first time on a Forum. I was diagnosed with Bipolar 1 with mixed and rapid cycling episodes last Tuesday. i haven't stopped crying in over a month. I only discovered I am bipolar after ruining my marriage and my family in an Extreme hypersexual Manic Episode. He left me and the kids yesturday. We have been best friends since we were 15, and I killed him with my affair. I feel like my heart should just stop beating any second because it's so broken. It took me a week to come down from being Manic and realize what I had done. I don't understand how I can live my life for almost 40 years and in one month so quickly turn into someone I don't even know, someone I hate! almost 20 years of marriage and our two kids lives ruined in the span of one month.
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Please get your husband to talk with your treatment providers- they can help him understand what happened- with a long standing friendship, marriage and kids, there has to be lots of strings connecting you both. He may need time to process and regroup, but keep reaching out and let him know you want to have him back and need him to help you work through all this. My husband was great through my mess for the past three years, but my family didn't understand and took my son away- I tell him every chance I get how much I want him back and love him. Never give up the hope of restoring your family.
