you all are making me fell better about things after reading replies! it means so much to me. The new year was hard b/c all i wanted was a text from him saying happy new year or somethingggggg...but i got through it and didn't text him and haven't talked to him for a few days now. I'm going to keep it up. I know with time things will get easier. But I do want to say THANK YOU to all of you who replied to my post. It means so much to me Happy New Year, and happy new beginnings to all!