I loved this yoga class. I cannot believe how what we done has stayed with me since the class. I am finding it difficult to do the type of breathing that was so relaxing in the class. The certain technique of breathing in with stomach out and exhaling with stomach in. My natural inclination is to do it the other way. I am practicing here and there, but I am going to go again wednesday. I love it and H is mildly (very mildly) supportive. Eh, tough. Im going....

About my 8 yo I wonder where she will take it. Ftt said to let it go until the kids go back to school and i am in a regular routine again. As long as I am not having flashbacks and tantrums, which I am not. I didnt get to tell her I stopped the klonopin b/c I was getting too drowsy to drive and my life is driving (!). But she did say to return to this after school starts again. I dont think I can do it another way. By sat night/sunday things will go back to normal as we have a basketball game in the morning...like usual

This is abig issue for me, too. Feeling like I am guilty of a crime. I have done something terribly wrong, like a murder or something, I have hidden it well, gotten away with it, nobody knows how bad I am. But somehow I will slip up. Someone will find out about me or I will commit a more obvious crime and then get the REAL punishment I have deserved all along. It is a general feeling about myself that has always plagued me on a level that I think i am only partly aware of. Just like you said, Kasva, then i will go to jail (whether I commited the murder or not).