I have been really down today. Left the house once, put absolutely NO effort into my appearance, nothing. I came straight home and slept for HOURS, then woke up and cried for HOURS. I hate this because I was happy, ecstatic actually, just yesterday. I don't understand why I am like this, no matter how hard I fight it. Whenever I think about it, I think there is a strong possibility of me having a big problem. In real life, however, I feel like I can just make it go away by itself. My IQ is quite high, over 180, so I feel like maybe there is just a fine line between genius and insanity. I constantly hear, "Oh it's just hormones...:" except I don't think that my behaviour can be justified by that alone. I want to avoid medicines and therapy at all costs, especially because I know that in some cases those practices last for the rest of one's life. So what are my options so I can start living life without suffering?

Love,

Sweetsorrow