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well i went over to this guys place. well we were kinda dating until this night happend. he promised me we'd work on the emotional part of the relationship more than sexual. because im 15 and he's 19 and he already took my virginity. but the whole night he just kept on kissing me and trying to take my pants off. I didnt want to but i didnt know if i was clear.. and like i kept on pulling away and fixed my shirt n stuff. but he kept on doing it. I got up and all of a sudden he pulls me into his room and starts taking off my pants. I really didnt want to do this but he was stronger than me. and it was just into the moment.
It was like the feeling where you need to say something but you just cant? it was like that.
So he's having sex with me and i couldn't do anything. All i could do was cry. then he finally stopped. And i quickly got dressed and went to the bathroom and locked the door. My mascara was running so i washed my face but i just couldn't stop crying! I could look at him without crying! So after an hour of just sitting on the couch and telling him he broke his promise, I finally left. it was freezing cold out but i had to toughen up.
So he walked with me about 2 blocks then i told him id be okay and that id stay the night at my friends house, so he left. But i lied. I was going to my friend Brandon's house because i know he cares about me and that i could always talk to him. And also i had no where else to go. my parents thought i went to my friends party and would sleep over By this time it was about 10pm.
So i met up with Brandon at the mall which was closed and we walked to his house. I stayed there till about 3am and then my parents came and got me. I just told them that My friends party ended early and that i came over to Brandon's house and hung out with him there.
I was such a horrible night until i got to Brandon's house. I am so thankful he was there for me. Or else i wouldn't have known what else to do.
Last edited by bebop; Jan 02, 2010 at 11:13 AM.
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