Why? It's so painful to be the only one that has to live like this. It's so depressing to see that there's no one here that has any real life problems/dilemmas- like the H becomes F and i can't stop being exposed to pesticides and worse things i can't even write about.

No one can identify with me with the terrible physical pain that's constant and so triggering and can't find any dr that believes me. everything is too hard to live and it makes me feel too hopeless and alone.