Hello sweety!

I am too so sorry for what you went through.

I agree with what Vickie wrote above. And he can be charged with rape.

You sound like a kind hearted, intelligent person. I remember when I was 15 I had a lot of confidence. But when a cab driver started touching my legs I froze. I got off the cab though before anything else happened. But I did not tell my mum or dad. And to this date (at the age of 34) I regret not telling them. I do not think that at the age of 15 I had the ability to deal with this on my own. I blocked it.

Now, what happened to you last night is so much worse. On every level. I am glad you had your friend to talk to and help you calm down. But I am not sure this is enough. Can you talk to your parents perhaps? to a teacher if you dont feel you can talk to your parents about this? to a friend's parent? or a counsellor?

Please do not ignore this and shrug it off as 'bad experience'. At your age, when you are developing your sense of self, independence and sexuality, it potentially can be damaging. So please talk to some one. We are here to help and listen too so please post when ever you feel like it. I am here to support you through any feelings or thoughts you have. So are the other great people on this site.

Please take good care and do not think that all men are like this. You just need to take your time, get to know someone, trust them and then if sex comes into the relationship happily and freely its a blessing. Sex is not something you have to have with someone. I think you know that but I know that so many young people today have sex because its the 'cool' thing to do. Because 'everyone does it'. You need to stay true to yourself and your feelings honey.

I wish you happiness and love and I will be looking for your posts.

Hugs xxxxxxxx