My head is spinning. I am trying to figure out a way out of this. I am so tired. I slept until 3 p.m. and then dozed on the couch until 8. I skipped our annual dinner and work duty at my inlaws house because I find it too triggering.

I dreamed all night about being in the hospital again.

My body is in slow motion and my mind won't stop. I am so confused about what I am feeling and what has heppened this week. I am glad I have been posting because I can look back and see. If I had to describe it, I don't think I could be coherent.