Hi Morgan,

You are SO BRAVE!!! I am so impressed with your courage!!! Do you know that the definition of courage is to have intense fear and do what you need to do anyway? This is very, very mature of you. And it shows some very good self care on your part.

I am sooooooo glad that you and your sister and friends had this sleepover. Also, what you did by emailing your counselor at school was absolutely amazing.

You did the very best thing you could have possibly done for yourself, your sister, and your parents by arranging to meet with your school counselor about these issues and also to make a deal with your friends to be there with you. That makes for "accountability" meaning it's like extra insurance that you will follow through with your committment and they will also be there for support for you.

One thing I wanted to be sure to say to you. Do not be concerned with how your mom or either of your parents are going to react to this event. Your parents are the adults. They are the grownups. It is their job to be the adults and to raise you and your sister into healthy, happy adults. Naturally, there are going to be bumps and bruises along the way for them. But it is their job to handle it. And they will. They will be just fine.
They are supposed to be there to support YOU.

And also, please, please do not think of this as a failure as a daughter or as a sister, or even as a person. You have not failed at anything! If anything, you are succeeding in taking really good care of your health, your mental well-being, and there are so many things you are doing RIGHT by doing this, it's just that it's hard to see them right now when you are so anxious about what is coming up.

Yes, it will be upsetting, at least for a while. There will be changes. But it will all work out.

Lots of hugs for you.