Ginger

*big hug* I know it don't seem like there's a light but there is. Sometimes it's just hard to see in the dark.

I had a very smart T a couple of years ago and he shared some wisdom with me that I hope will help you. He told me "Please don't look at this as a problem or obstical. It's not. It's a way of really messed up thinking. It's a lifestyle. Just like anyother way of living presents it's problems this one does too. Granted this lifestyle isn't one that you get to choose. When you start looking at it as a problem you start to work against it. When you work against it it becomes a problem. Problems you can fix, but when you try to fix this one you only break the person. There is no right or wrong answer for this problemSo please don't look at this as something you fix. You have to learn to look at it as hearding unpredictable chaos."

I hope this helps you. I know when I feel like the end is just waiting for me I remember that and try to find strength in it. It was a new spin of looking at things. Sometimes being told you're perfect the way you are is what you need to hear more than anything else.

Please remember anyone here (myself included) is here to listen if you need an understanding ear or just a shoulder to cry on. You are NEVER alone in this battle.