I've been bipolar for almost 15 years. I've been in the hospital three times, last time was two years ago. I've been level for the most part since then, a year ago I was able to ease off the meds (my choice, I'm not a fan of them). Untill about 8 weeks ago I had been doing really well. No major highs or lows that would cause alrarm.

My boyfriend deployed and I fell into a rapid cycle. I've been up and down so much I lost most of the last 8 weeks. Wasn't until my T mention something on my diary and my very close friends asking if I'm on my "rollarcoaster" as they call it, that I went back and noticed my pattern.

I'm in a new town, and my friends here are also military wife type people, like myslef, and a family member who is just as depresssed as I am. So my social circle here is unhappy and in the same boat as I am lifewise. I don't feel like I have a safe place to talk out here. It's made me feel lost and helpless.

I know I'm not alone, no matter how bad I may feel it. There are military wife support groups, but I don't think they'd understand why I feel as low as I do, and afraid to scare them with my highs. I hope this site will help and I can start to find a balance and my mid grownd again. Just need to remind myself I'm not alone in my battle and I have 'friends in arms', so to speak.