thank-you so much for the support. I did tell my parents a little while ago. and they were angry and very concerned. I know they love me alot but i was just to scared to just come out and say it so i just sat there in front of them for a while just crying until i could find the words to say it. And in this family it's not exactly unexpected. Unfortunately a couple years back this happened to my older sister who is now 17 around christmas time. And theres only us both in the family. A family of 4 who have had lots of tragic events happen to them. But they both kinda had the same bad of reaction. my dad who is i retired RCMP i can see in his face that he is just so heart broken and not knowing what to do exactly. He suffers from post pardum depression from when he was in the RCMP. I know that this family just doesnt need any of this crap and hurt anymore.