This brought up an interesting thought for me, thanks Sarah Kristine.

I wonder just how often ftt notices I am drifing off. I have said something to her at the times I felt I could catch myself getting really far off and underwater. I dont think it would be so easy to "return" if I was far off. Often I dont catch myself, but once or twice ftt has told me to take deep breaths and look at her. But there are times when she is talking and all I hear is the sound of her voice and the look on her face. I dont understand anything.

What does that mean? Im overwhelmed? I am interested in what she is saying. But maybe I have something to say and she is talking? I dont know what it means. I can only hear the sounds her voice makes....as if I was a pre-verbal child. I think I do have those kinds if memories somewhere.