Hello Moose,
It seems this manic episode of yours has been going on for quite a while now. I may be wrong but I'm assuming you've gone through these cycles before. If so, I was wondering... what has it taken in the past to bring you down? An unwanted pregnancy? An arrest? Loss of a job or significant relationship? A sexually transmitted disease? Hospitalization?

I grant that I'm new to participating in this area of the site and perhaps it's frowned upon to discourage someone when they're in a manic episode that seems to be escalating. Nonetheless, I'm going to assume that you're a good person who has a life and doesn't deserve the pain of self-destructing. Do you have a doctor or therapist you could call? Is there a family member or friend nearby who cares about you enough to ensure you get some help in putting on the brakes before any of the above happens?