I dunno. I'm still upbeat not tired. Went to ihop and had a great conversation with the waitress. I'm gonna go to the record store later and get some lps. This us so weird to not be tired. I gave never been arrested or any of those things you've listed. I really don't think um bad until I start depersonalization or hallucinating and not done either of those for over a year. It feels good to laugh. I dunno about crashing. Can't see it happening- hasn't before. Psych er will just let me sit in bright lights and whatever and no fun stuff like reg ER has when I go - morphine

and yes- I hate my mother. She is stressing me out big time. She looks at me with a suspicious eye everytime I walk past her. Add to that complainng and doing her martyr bit.... I've gotten used to it but some days, rather than beat her to a pulp, I just leave.