well T didn't email...I go back monday, yeah she may tomorrow or sat or sun, but I don't see the point in that...thing is if I T how I waited each day she may say oh why didn't you email me? Or she might say, oh i'm sorry, you didn't make it clear whether you wanted me to before the break...thing is, now it would feel to contrived...the fact that i had to ask makes me feel like i've written myself a letter, to myself and given it to T to give to me...yet if I don't say anything I feel i would not be being true, because I have spent EVERY day this xmas break waiting...I feel stupid in a way...but there you go...