My mood is getting difficult now.The panic attacks and the tears are more difficult to cope with.I get so scared I can't breathe.this last week its got more intense and more frequent but I can't think why.I'm struggling now not to self medicate or harm myself.Every night I'm terrified someone is going to break in.I don't feel safe.I get so distraught and upset its really really difficult.
I'm trying to keep going and get through it.I know right now I don't want to die I just want to be well.

Check the survivirs of abuse thread(tommorow i will tell)