You need to keep on meds and counseling, and gain at least some respect for your Mum. My son tried to hit me once, and my husband told him, go ahead, and then go home and pack your bags. I hope you can live on your part time pay at McDonalds. He turned around, thought, and went back to working with us on the new home we were building. All of us need to learn to think before we speak or carry out physical actions. You really need to give your Mum a heartfelt apology, not a fake one, so think it over !! 14 is a hard age, but life is tough, and you need to realize that. My Mum is very ill right now. Think about the fact that things could change any day, and we can lose people just in seconds. Then there is no chance for apology, no going back. Take one day at a time, and find the good in your Mum. Think why she may have made some of the decisions she did. Did she have to work away from home while you were growing up? I did. It is very hard to miss things that your little ones do for the first time. Think, think, think !!