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Originally Posted by moonrise
I once asked T if she thought that some people were just intrinsically bad and deserved to die. That's how I feel, that there is just something in me that is so rotten, so horrible, that I don't deserve to live. I've lived my life trying to make up for 'it', trying to be so good, so honest, so kind and nice to make up for my inborn 'bad-ness'. But nothing I do seems to make that feeling of intrinsic darkness go away, even though it's not logical.
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Soaking in the counter-examples and good thoughts here will slowly make that feeling of intrinsic darkness go away, as you realize that not everyone feels that way about you, so maybe there is another way of looking at it and your feeling is not the final answer.