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Originally Posted by BlueMoon6
Sadder and hurt feelings are not accessible now. That was why I was thinking of different techniques to use to get to those feelings. I have an indirect way of know ing they are there, such as how I feel about other people's mom's and seeing mothers and children in the partk etc.
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I'm late to this thread, Blue...but this resonated with me. I have reacted rather strongly to other moms and their kids. I work in a youth program, so I see it often. There have been a few times where I felt like crying at something so sweet and tender between a mom and her kid. Like when their kid is sick and they will rush in all worried and immediately comfort them. It always has baffled me, but I just want to push it away. I don't want to think that I react that way because
I missed out on that in some way.
I fight it. All the time. Its harder for me to accept that my mom was anything but a great parent, because I don't really remember much and because I
know there was never any abuse. So how can I complain? It is tough. Sigh. It IS going to be a long road, and I wish I knew how to connect to feelings, because I don't.