I am starting to look my T in the eye more. As I delve deeper with her and carefully disclose more sensitive things to her, and she doesn't judge me for it, I am finding it easier to look her in the eye. Like others, I still cannot look my T in the eye when I am telling her something particularly sensitive and am feeling ashamed. I don't look to the side; I put my elbows on my knees and bow my head... almost like I'm curling into myself. This doesn't happen every session. Most sessions, I can keep eye contact for the most part now. Which is big progress for me!

I am so glad my T doesn't get mad about lack of eye contact or tell me to look at her when I am trying to say something. I was trying to disclose something to my last T, and I started to curl up like I do, and she said, "Jexa, I am NOT going to do a session with you looking at the back of your head."

Needless to say, I never told her the thing I was trying to tell her.