((((((((((Martina))))))))) Yeah. it can be really hard with this illness. But you know, I am glad for what normalcy I can glean from my meds. After twenty years, I finally hit the right combo. For the first time in forty years I have not been afraid every breath I take. For me, that has been a major miracle. HUGGS dear and I hope that they can find somethign that works for you and that you can find some peace where you are.