MUE, you can work through this with T. No one changes patterns on a dime. The best way to work through them is when they are happening. You can process this and figure out what you were thinking and what other options that you had. I have worked through many things like this. 1) noticed a problem, 2) I fell into problem again, 3) I processed the problem and came up with different options and/or understood myself better with the pattern, 4) problem presented itself again, 5) I went through the problem again but I did a better job with it because I made a few different choices. And so on.........Eventually, I worked through the issue and it was never a problem again. This is actually an opportunity for you to work through this issue.........