How this came up for me was one session a month or so ago, I went in and told T that I wanted to try lying on the couch. T automatically moved her chair sideways - I looked at her, bewildered, and she explained that she would sit facing sideways if I lie on the couch and stare ahead or up at the ceiling, so she's not in my line of sight. I told her no, no, no - I just wanted to curl up on the couch but talk how we normally talk! She was fine with that. But then it got me thinking, the more traditonal psychoanalysis might be interesting to try. T said she does that with some of her patients, after I asked. I think T would be totally fine with quitting it anytime I didn't feel comfortable. And I do feel like I trust T enough now to try it, and also that I'm better at free association because it was very hard for me to do that when I first started therapy, I was really censoring myself all the time.

Very interesting about the surreal feeling. I had read that it may be more emotional than I expect it to be. I'm excited to talk about it with T more on Monday - who knows, maybe we'll try it! I'll let you know how it goes!