I have been getting frustrated with my psych nurse for a while now. She does both medications and therapy. She probably saved my life, she really has been great, but lately it's just not going anywhere. And she's consistenly VERY late to our appointments. Like 30-45 minutes late. With no apologies whatsoever. She doesn't listen to my complaints about side effects from the medications, she seems to think I'm just whining. And we're stonewalling in therapy.

So I called another therapist, just to check things out. And after only two sessions, I can already tell I really like this guy. Just his attitude, his approach, everything.

So I decided I am going to just see my psych nurse for meds visists only, and see this other man for therapy.

He told me I need to tell her, for a lot of reasons, but also so he can talk to her about me and get a history. She's been on vacation since just before Christmas, but she gets back on Tuesday. I left her a voice mail and said there was something important I needed to talk to her about in person, but it would only take 5-10 minutes, so I want her to fit me in on lunch. Told her to call me and let me know when to come in.

Now I'm scared. How do I tell her? This woman has done so much for me. A year ago I was highly suicidal and nearly completed it more than once. She brought me back from the depths of hell and I owe her so much. How can I leave her like this?

I still have to see her for the meds, anyway. So I'm not cutting her off completely. And I don't want to make it awkward from now on.

What do I tell her?