Wow exotic that was favor brave of you, it was an intense session for sure.
It's so hard to be vulnerable like that, last week I admitted to my T that I have been laying in bed lately just wishing I were dead. I have no plans of doing such a thing but sometimes the sadness is so intense that I can't help but feel it so deep.
Sending you safe hugs, processing that stuff after session can be intense at times as well, be safe.