Exotic,
That sounds like a very healing session. I could totally relate to what you said in the beginning about trying to push the treatment and getting frustrated. I think that happens to me a lot of times. So many times want really want to connect to that right-hemisphere during the session and it just doesn't work. Also like you when I seem to have an episode where I delve deep and recover I too seem to get a burst of creativity. Like brain connections have been cleared and energy has been freed up to use on fun things. When this happens I always think about Sunrise's comments about all the energy we waste in the trauma cycle and how nice it feels when its available for other things.

It sounds like you created a healing vortex during that session...Hope it leads to nice step forward in your overall healing.

My T and I tried the EMDR thing once..I think. It worked a little bit but I think I was really trying too hard and don't think she got the response she wanted. I did go home and played with it myself and THEN I really triggered myself and forgot about the happy place part--not good!
In the end I was OK though. I was able to dig myself out of the darkness and reach that floaty but calm, I'm OK place.
What I think is interesting about my EDMR experience is a little over a month ago my inner child got really triggered, I ignored her in therapy, then when back the next day to do a do over session. During the do-over session, I kind of floated in and out of my dark place during that session. Midway through that session, I realize that I was automatically using the eye movements to bring myself out of the darkness. It was like my T would ask me something, and in trying to find the answer I would go down into the darkness, repeat some of the noise that was playing in my head, then rock my head to zig-zag my way back to the room.

Now that I think of it, I'd kind of like to ask my T about that re-do session. Sooo many questions, so little time :-)