Hello lovely people, thank you so much for your support, it really does mean a lot to me. New years' day wasn't great, but we made it through, through another day. I have two beautiful littlies and a third on the way. Its certainly not easy being pregnant as sometimes my beautiful bundle is forgotten about until it is knocked or clothes don't fit or a tiny foot finds my bladder/tampoline! I have great guilt that I am not connected 100% of the time to the new force growing inside. I have great guilt that I'm not connected to anything 100% of the time.
I have come to understand only this about DID - in an analogy, it is a book full of irony. Each page pretending to be its own story when without the other pages the story wouldn't make sense; each page starting and finishing mid-sentence, without all the information of what the full story is really about; and none of the pages come away from the spine, all stuck together by the glue in the middle so that when one page is moved to another room, all the pages are. Each page fighting for the readers full attention, but the book needs to be read as a whole to be properly understood. And when one page gets thrown across the room, we are all thrown together. I don't think I'll ever make sense of it. I just hope my family can hang on while I try.
Hope you all had a wonderful, safe and happy christmas and new year break...
Yours,
kp