Pot can make people depressed and so numbed out that they can't think straight. The last thing I would want is something that numbs me out. I find taht journaling is helpful when I feel really down as well as feeling okay. It works for me. It feels good to get the bad stuff off my chest. I do feel better when it gets on paper. I usually go back once every week or so and read it. Can't believe I was so down. Everyone who has responded to your note has some good suggestions. How about when you are feeling betting, looking into something like job corps or something similar. I know it is such a leap to get up the energy to look for something like this. Through out my life I have been employed for long periods of time(up to a year). this was before diagnosis and psych meds. God, was it tough. I don't know hoe I got through it, but I did. and I hope you do too.