Exotic,

It sounds like you created a healing vortex during that session...Hope it leads to nice step forward in your overall healing.

I like that-healing vortex!

My T and I tried the EMDR thing once..I think. It worked a little bit but I think I was really trying too hard and don't think she got the response she wanted. I did go home and played with it myself and THEN I really triggered myself and forgot about the happy place part--not good!

Wow, never do EMDR on yourself! There is some relaxing type of EMDR that is okay, but not this kind of stuff.
I am glad you made it through that, EMDR is powerful stuff.

What I think is interesting about my EDMR experience is a little over a month ago my inner child got really triggered, I ignored her in therapy, then when back the next day to do a do over session. During the do-over session, I kind of floated in and out of my dark place during that session. Midway through that session, I realize that I was automatically using the eye movements to bring myself out of the darkness. It was like my T would ask me something, and in trying to find the answer I would go down into the darkness, repeat some of the noise that was playing in my head, then rock my head to zig-zag my way back to the room.

I find this very interesting Chaotic- I would certainly talk to your T about it. Maybe if you can relax and let the feelings go like I had to learn to do, maybe EMDR would be very helpful to you. But only with your T, okay.

A newish technique is to let the client move back and forth through the trauma processing of EMDR, instead of hitting it hard on target again and again. Especially with those who had very intense things or multiple traumas. My T tried this with me after a seminar she went to and she said it was a beautiful thing to watch me, because my brain would allow the intense stuff and then sort of fade out on it's own, then we would go back and forth like that, letting my brain naturally do it's own healing thing within it's own time. She didn't tell me before hand, which is good because I probably would have tried too hard or become too self conscience about it.

I hope you tell us what your T thinks, I am feeling rather excited for you.