So I ran into this guy I haven't seen since high school and well we hit it off pretty well and we're now dating.... after the second day of talking...... Which I'm not so sure about........ but the thing is
I think he's plotting something. He's trying to get me pulled into his drama and I'm going to die or something. I can't get these thoughts out of my head! I want to feel okay.. I don't want to think everyone is out to get me, especially someone I like. I just feel like I can never be in a relationship with someone because it's going to keep happening. And no this isn't the first time these delusions got in the way. I think it's because I feel more vulnerable so I get worse.
... Should I tell him to back off? I feel a connection with him and I'm going insane here thinking this **** is true. I don't want to think this ****!!!!!!! wtf i hate this. I hate myself. I'm really refraining from hurting myself. This is ****ing bull ****!!!! I just want to drink bleach or take all the advil pm or slit my arms to shreds. ****