Just last night I filled up my pill container for the week. I do one of those Sunday-Saturday ones with a slot for AM and PM. It took me forever just to fill it all up. Not just pills, but vitamins, because there's a faint glimmer of a chance that fish oil could help, so what the hell, take that too. And I hate milk, so there's calcium. And a regular multivitamin. And this, and that...it's insane.

Two years ago, I wasn't taking anything at all. And I seemed to manage okay. Nobody knew I was messed up. It came as this huge shock to everyone when I finally 'came out' about it all.

Sometimes I wish I could just go back to that, hiding it, pretending it was all okay. But I can't.