Rainbow- This question is kind of funny- do we live life or record it? I like to record it. Here I mean. It makes it more real to me. It helps me to process. I remember dt was really angry at me that I was on the computer and had computer friendships. As a matter of fact, if you remember I posted about her calling me self-absorbed and that I am like my mother etc, it was around spending time on the computer and journaling. Is it selfish and a way to avoid life?

But on the other subject....the thought of becoming close with friends here and anywhere and then they leave or I leave makes me very, very sad. There are friendships I have not kept up with over the years from school for this or that reason and it does make me sad that they are not part of my life anymore and I am not part of theirs. That life (theirs) went on without me.