My Support Forums - View Single Post - Are we sure its DID or are we making it up?

anderson · Jan 03, 2010, 05:30 PM

Now lets see the answer to your question can be an interesting one. How can you accept yourself when those around you can not feel it ,taste it , or live it. Those with DID have had to learn to live normal lives to be able to survive as an adult. But does it change who we are? How can you ex-plane what you are if every time you try others look at you in disbelief. Yes there will be days when all is calm, when all your alters will sit back and relax while you carry all the weight yet like you describe it. Wham ! they come out let the outsiders know that they are still there. You can not change what you are. You can only accept that you are different. And not in a bad way, you survived something as a child that few adult could. but now you have to help heal all those that have been hurt with in so that you can be one again if that is your choice. Lost time and non-joint decisions come from fear and no communications. Don't doubt your self be there for yourself is the best thing you can give yourself and your alters. We send safe hugs to all of you and may you find peace within.

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Originally Posted by Amanda1960

This may sound bizarre but sometimes Im not sure about wether Im really dissociative or not. I mean I got the diagnosis many years ago but I cant help but wonder if some of the stuff that happens to me isint just me making it all up. How do I know if all the reading Ive done on the subject hasnt influenced the way I behave?

Then I think to myself about the lost time, switching in front of my daughter and really freaking her out, finding debits on my debit card for purchases I dont remember making? Could it be anything else? Absent-mindedness, perhaps? Ive been called dingbat more n once. Maybe thats all it is.

Anyway, getting to a loss for words and train of thought is nearing an end.