i really dont think i can take much more of anything at the moment, my minds at a really bad place but i cant seem to change it. all the small things are just going together and making one big problem for me and i dont know who to tell or what to tell or anything, and im sitting in the middle of my floor crying my eyes out, and i decided to go here to write before i do something stupid like SI.
im guessing whats making me feel so down is hormones or something saying as im a teenager, and i have tests starting on the 7th that are part of my main school tests, my friend's mum caught her trying to jump out her 2nd story window the other week, im all alone recently because of all the school work i have to do and i dont have time to stop for 10 minutes, which is just as well, because then i start to think and it puts me into situations like this were i really cant handle anything anymore
and my friend texting me at the moment isnt helping anything either, because she is telling me how much of a wonderfull day she has had hanging out at the cinema with everyone, (the fact no one even bothered to invite me made me feel even more crap) and i cant tell her to go away because she will know something is up and i dont know how much i can trust her anymore,
i dont feel i can trust anyone.
im just to stressed out and its getting to much and i dont know what to do and im worried about what i could do if thing get worse and i just want to scream so loud.