i tried to do that, i really tried, and it was ok then during the day when im doing things, but when i go to bed i try to sleep and i cant, and im left in the dark thinking about everything and last night i didnt get to sleep untill about 4:30am and i cant help thinking then because there is nothing else to ocupy my mind, and thats when i feel at my worst. even now, its 12:15 am and im sitting fully dresses on my laptop, wide awake, with nothing to do, trying to stop myself thinking by going on really random websites.
i used to write stories in notebooks that i keep in my room, but i cant even seeem to concentrate on them anymore. when i go to write i cant anymore and when i do, my stories are not as good, which get me more down, so now my mind refuses too come up with stories because i dont want to disappoint myself. when i couldnt write i would read a book, but i cant concentrate on the words anymore. would listening to music when trying to sleep help, could it block out the thoughts till i get to sleep?