I love this post, because it is something that i am currently dealing with now. I have just recently been diagnosed with it, and when my t told me that she is not entirely a DID trained, I lost it. I told her I made everything up. When she tells me to ask inside and all, I go along with it and tell her whatever she is wanting to hear. that after I have said something it is not the truth. i hate it! She and my pdoc says that the symptoms have been very defined over the past two years. i sometimes feel that it is not denial because I just out right dont have it, and other times its like okay let me figure this out. I often tell myself that I dont have it because my trauma wasnt that bad, nothing like Sybil or Eve in the Three Faces of Eve. I just dont get it at times.
Maybe with more journaling and t it will come together.