For the first time in a long time I tried to go out on my own yesterday. No family no friends, no kids, just sometime alone. Its been 8 years it will be 9 on the 20th of this month, since I was raped. I was doing good for about an hour and a half. Then I saw him. He came toward me so I left. I went to a different store figuring he would leave it at that. No he found me there too. I went to the nearest bathroom and call my fiance to come get me. I then went to mall security who stayed with me till my fiance came to pick me up. I feel so defeated. I feel scared (I was told he lived in another state now.) Ever since yesterday I've stayed inside blinds closed doors locked. It feels like I was raped just yesterday again. I can't close my eyes with out seeing him. I feel like I'm back at square one.